Deeply conflicted

I saw this paragraph on a politics discussion list, and had to share. The context is, Israel just bombed the UN's "Relief and Works Agency" building in Gaza. No, seriously. Their claim is that Hamas shot rockets at Israel and then ran into the building. Many questioned this claim, and the response was, just look at Israel's IDF channel on youtube.

A response to that started with "we are watching Israel follow through on a decision to destroy Hamas as a military organization, for real, no matter what, and Hamas has finally figured that out. Hamas assumed, as usual, that the Western moral code that they and their fellow jihadists laughingly abandoned decades ago would constrain Israel from really fighting. They are now learning otherwise." - which seemed to be the typical hawkish right-wing Jewish defending-our-military's-killing-of-civilians answer, until he followed up with this, which I feel like framing:

Personally, as a middle-aged American Jew with deep family roots in Israel and thus a decades-old burning contempt bordering on the pathological for Islamic terrorists but an almost-as-instinctive liberal secular-humanist sympathy for the clearly repressed, unfree, devastatingly impoverished Palestinians, whose small children quite obviously deserve freedom and safety and education as much as my own small daughter but will almost certainly never enjoy them, I am so beyond conflicted that I cannot state a personal opinion that isn't instantly contradicted by another personal opinion waiting to explode out of my mind. I am honestly rejoicing that Hamas is being destroyed, yet I honestly believe that by any reasonable standard Israel is guilty of war crimes (just as I believe that of America in Iraq). I honestly believe that the Jewish settlements in the West Bank are a moral atrocity that should all be removed at gunpoint by the IDF and the settlers arrested if they resist and shot if they wield weapons. But I also believe that no two-state solution will ever be possible until a Palestinian leader arises who is capable of envisioning, selling and enforcing such a peaceful accommodation.